Mark 14:22-26: in context

On the night before he died, as they were eating the Passover meal, Jesus took bread, blessed it, broke it, and gave it to his disciples: take, eat; this is my body. Then he took the cup, gave thanks, and gave it to them, and they all drank: this is my blood of the covenant, poured out for many. He told them he would not drink of the fruit of the vine again until he drank it new in the kingdom of God. And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.

In these few words Jesus gives his disciples himself. This is my body, he says over the broken bread; this is my blood, poured out for many, over the cup. On the night before his death, knowing what was coming, he takes the ordinary elements of a meal and makes them the sign and gift of his own self, his body about to be broken and his blood about to be poured out, given for them. The love in it is staggering. He does not merely teach them, or leave them instructions, or die at a distance; he gives them his very self, his body and blood, and bids them take and eat and drink, so that his self-giving becomes something they receive into themselves. And notice the words poured out for many; his blood is the blood of a new covenant, and it is shed not for himself but for others, for the many, for us. This is the heart of what he came to do, gathered into a meal: to give himself, his body and blood, for the many, sealing a new covenant in his blood. Christians have returned to this table ever since, receiving again the gift he gave that night, the bread and cup that are his body and blood given for us. It is worth coming to it with wonder, that on the night he was betrayed, facing his death, Jesus' thought was to give himself to his own, to be received by them, poured out for many. The gift of the supper is not finally bread and wine but Christ himself, given for us, and offered still to be received.

Do I receive the gift Jesus gave on the night before he died, his own body and blood, poured out for many, with the wonder it deserves, and does the love of a Savior who gives his very self for us, to be received into us, move and hold me?