John 12:27-33: in context

As the cross draws near, Jesus speaks openly of his inner struggle. Now my soul is troubled, he says. And what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour? But for this purpose I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name. He does not hide that his soul is troubled at what lies ahead; he weighs the prayer to be spared. And then he chooses: not his own relief, but his Father's glory and the purpose for which he came. A voice from heaven answers, I have glorified it, and will glorify it again.

What is striking here is that Jesus is genuinely troubled, and yet resolute. He does not face the cross with cool detachment, unmoved; his soul is troubled, and he says so. He even voices the prayer that might spare him: Father, save me from this hour. The trouble is real; the cost weighs on him. And yet, in the same breath, he sets that aside and chooses his Father's glory: but for this purpose I came to this hour; Father, glorify your name. He does not let his troubled soul turn him from his purpose; he chooses the Father's will and glory through the trouble, not around it. This is a model for us of how to face what troubles us while remaining faithful. We can think that faithfulness requires us not to be troubled, that to feel the weight and cost of what we face is a failure of faith. Jesus shows otherwise. His soul was troubled, deeply; feeling the cost is not unfaithful. What matters is what we choose through the trouble. Jesus did not deny his trouble, but neither did he let it turn him from his purpose; he acknowledged it, weighed the prayer for relief, and chose the Father's glory. He offered up prayers with loud cries and tears, Hebrews says, and learned obedience through what he suffered. The obedience was learned through the suffering, not apart from it. This frees us from thinking we must feel no trouble to be faithful, and it shows us the choice faithfulness makes. When we face what troubles us, hard obedience, painful cost, we need not pretend to be untroubled; the trouble may be real and deep. But we are called to choose, through the trouble, God's will and glory over our own relief, as Jesus chose. Father, glorify your name, he prayed, in the very hour his soul was troubled. This is the shape of faithful struggle: not the absence of trouble, but the choosing of God's will through it. When our souls are troubled by what God asks or by what we face, we may bring the trouble honestly to the Father, even voice the longing for relief, and then, like Jesus, choose his will and glory over our own relief, praying through the trouble, Father, glorify your name, and trusting him to bring good through what we would not have chosen.

When I face what troubles my soul, hard obedience or painful cost, do I think faithfulness requires me to feel no trouble, or can Jesus, whose soul was genuinely troubled yet who chose his Father's glory through the trouble, praying, for this purpose I came to this hour, Father, glorify your name, teach me that faithfulness is not the absence of trouble but the choosing of God's will through it, so that I bring my trouble honestly to the Father and then choose his will and glory over my own relief?